Onee's Site

(The following is a bit of pre-game roleplay of an encounter between Onee and Shinichi. Both parties had input on this. It probably takes place a day or two before the trip.)



Looking down at the ground all she could do was stare, mouth agape. She knew of the controversy going around the school and of the incident that had happened so very long ago, but, now this?

Akifume Zenshima Exposed!!

“God, oh god…”

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The bell rang and the day was done. Feeling exhausted and ready to get home and be done with the awful day, Onee moved quickly down the sidewalks, passing by her fellow classmates one after another. A few yelled at her, a few said hey; she simply ignored them and kept on going for several blocks until… She came to a halt.

Down the street was the large and luxurious building that had caught her attention on many previous days. It was the Mutou family Shrine, one of the biggest in all of Osaka, and a haven for worshippers of the Goddess Amaterasu. While Onee didn’t really have strong religious beliefs as such, she still found the Shrine a very lovely place to go and think things over and relax, and the way she was feeling, it appeared as if today would be a good day to make use of the Shrine.

The Shrine was enormous in size and very beautiful. The grounds were well kept and everything always seemed in order. It was also quiet there with people roaming through, praying, and just observing the beauty of the Shrine. Every time Onee would find herself here she always felt at peace inside, as if a calming aura exuded around her.

Slowly, and with grace, Onee walked up the steps of the Temple. She had wanted to run back home quickly today, but, something seemed to be drawing her in. As she continued forward she realized what was bothering her and stopped to open her book bag and take out the paper from this morning.

“Could… any of this actually be true?” she thought to herself.

Taking a moment to look over the paper she continued walking up the steps until she arrived at the top. She folded the paper up and walked over to a large and magnificent statue of the Goddess Amaterasu. Walking over she laid down her things, knelt, and made sure she lit one of the candles there before closing her eyes and taking in a deep breath.

For the next several minutes Onee simply sat there thinking about things and trying to calm herself. Her mind wandered and many things entered into her mind. A fight with her family the other day, finding the newspaper this morning, being slammed over and over again with the knowledge of the upcoming school trip…

“Pardon me.” said an unfamiliar man. “But don’t I know you from class?”

Startled, Onee opened her eyes quickly to see a young man in formal Shrine attire looking at her.

“I didn’t mean to interrupt you of course, I do apologize. My name is Shinichi Mutou.”

Unsure of what he wanted, the name suddenly triggered in her head. There was a boy named Shinichi in her class, but, she knew the name more prominently from another source… The newspaper articles she had been reading had has name in it. He was one of the friends on the beach that night when Yuzuru was…

Onee suddenly became aware that she was staring at him without saying anything. The silence was thick and it was obvious Shinichi wasn’t sure what he had done or needed to do. Feeling embarrassed, Onee quickly corrected herself, and bowed.

“Oh, I um, I’m so sorry.” she began. “Yes, I think we do share the same class. I’m Onab… Err, just call me Onee.”

Delighted to see a response, Shinichi smiled back to her with a very warm and gentle smile.

“It’s a pleasure Onee.” he said in an elegant voice. “I have seen you here before and always thought it was you, I’m glad I came over.”

Onee smiled back at him, she appeared happy to be having the conversation; however, inside she squirmed, feeling uneasy. All her life she had tried to avoid getting to know people or being overly friendly, she didn’t want anyone to get to close to her. A very private person, Onee found herself feeling very uncomfortable with the way things were going.

Another period of silence…

“So,” Shinichi began. “How long have you been coming here?”

“Well, I… At least a year or so now I guess, maybe more. I uh…”

Onee shifted her weight and began to stand, attempting to be on an even level with Shinichi so she might feel less intimidated. As she rose, though, the paper in her hand slipped and opened on the ground. Shinichi bent to pick it up and paused when he saw the headline.

“What are you doing with this?” he said in an little stronger voice than before, holding the paper in front of Onee.

Realizing what this must look like, and already feeling awkward being here, Onee could think of nothing else to say or do except to run. She didn’t want to risk revealing anything to him or letting him accuse her of something that wasn’t true. Onee could tell his voice was sterner and perhaps irritated at seeing the newspaper. There was only one option…

Turning to run, Shinichi reached out and grabbed hold of her arm.

“Don’t go, I didn’t mean to…”

But before he could finish she broke free and took off away from the Shrine. Her cheeks were flushed, her heart was beating, and she was back to wanting nothing else but to be at home, alone, in her room.

Meanwhile, back at the Shrine, Shinichi was feeling a bit angry at himself for the way he approached her. It really wasn’t like him to do that. Regardless, looking down at the paper, he couldn’t help but wonder her thoughts on the situation.

Back at home, Onee felt a lot safer and she started to calm down some. She raced upstairs and darted into her room, her parents said nothing and an audible increase in the volume of the music from her sister’s room could be heard as Onee got to hers and closed the door.

Tossing her things to the floor Onee collapsed in her bed breathing heavy. She was very flustered and even more upset that she knew she couldn’t go back to that Shrine anytime soon; she couldn’t risk bumping into Shinichi there again.

“Oh God, what does he think of me I wonder? Why did he have to see me with that paper? Damn! The paper… he still has it doesn’t he?”

Frustrated and unsure what to do, Onee figured she might just call in sick tomorrow so that she wouldn’t have to risk running into him and explaining things or getting into another conversation she had to run from. It wasn’t like anyone would miss her, no one misses a nobody, and that’s exactly how Onee wanted to keep it.

No sense in having a LJ if I won't use it.

*sigh*

There sure has been a lot of drama at school over the last few months. We start things off with a death, then there are a couple of fights, and now we've just had another loss. Pretty bad year overall I guess. My condolensces go out to anyone who was close to those we've lost this year. No one deserves to lose someone they care about, and people our age shouldn't be dieing like this.

Anyways, I guess that's all I really have to say. I suppose there is that class trip coming up, but I can't imagine it will amount to much...

Name: Onee Misuta
Age: 16, born August 25th, 1989
Starsign: Virgo
Grade Average: C




History: Onabe was born in the summer of ’89 and although it was supposed to be a happy occasion, it was far from it. Onabe had been born with a genetic defect and genital deformity that left Akira and Rei, Onabe’s parents, confused with what to do. The doctor’s told them that Onabe’s chromosomes showed that he was male, but his genitals were deformed and useless and he had remnants of female reproductive organs intact inside of him. It was a tough call but eventually they decided to get rid of the useless genitals and make him a female. He would have to undergo hormone therapy consistently and it would take several surgeries, but eventually he was transformed into a girl.

From that point on Onabe was raised as a girl, but the resentment of her parents lingered on. Onabe had a sister, Yuki, and she would usually get all the attention and care while Onabe was put on the back burner. Not that she was neglected, but Akira and Rei just couldn’t get over their frustration and fury for losing their chance at a baby boy and having to raise this child with which they called female but knew she might really be male underneath.

Once Onabe got old enough to start being curious about such things as the human body, males, females, sex, things got pretty bad. For the most part Onabe’s family ignored these questions early on until finally her sister Yuki just broke down and called her a freak.

By the time Onabe started going to school her parents knew they would have to say something eventually, but dreaded doing so. It didn’t help matters, though, when the school kids start picking on Onabe who had very odd looks early on. They made fun of her name, her appearance, her shyness, it was miserable. The teachers didn’t help matters much either as her medical records soon revealed to the staff what had happened. They too saw her as a freak.

After a while though, the teasing and harshness of people grew a callous on her and she learned to ignore it and just keep moving. Things got better later on when she moved up to a new school as well. Her looks were improving a bit and in a new environment she felt safer and strived to be more friendly and outgoing. A few still teased her, but she ignored them. However, just as things started getting better it also made her wonder even more about the things her parents had never taught her. She had learned for herself the differences of boys and girls and was starting to learn things from magazines, text books, the internet, and other sources. She wanted to find out the truth.

So, for the next several months she begged and pleaded with her family to tell her things and tell her why they were so secretive about such things with her. Once again her sister broken down first and called a bisexual freak, neither man nor woman.

As confused as ever and very upset, Onabe finally forced the issue and got shown the truth. She had been born a boy and changed into a girl. She would never have kids and would never be the same as everyone else.

This information ultimately reverted her back into a state of reclusion and fear. She feared other people finding out and making fun of her. She feared falling in love and having to explain all of this. She was very confused because she finally understood why many times girls seemed more appealing to her than boys. Her family refused to talk about it further to her and continued to act like she was there but not really a true part of the family. Times were very tough.

More time would pass, more calluses would grow around her. She managed to make average grades in school, but avoided people as much as possible and kept to herself almost all the time. She never felt quite right, like the skin she was in just wasn’t right. She would have good moments at times and really bad days. She quickly discovered how people would treat her who found out as most of the teachers knew the truth because of her medical records. They would always look down on her, expect her to do something horrible or perverted. When she would shower with the other girls the Phys-Ed teacher would give her degrading looks and many times she felt as if the teacher might just walk over and tell her that this was the girls locker room and she didn’t belong.

Life continued like this, good times and bad, and all Onabe really knew deep down was that there would come a day when she would be old enough and strong enough to go out on her own, and then when that day came she could decide for herself how she wanted to live her own life. It was this thought that kept her going and made her strive to keep living no matter what.

In her most recent history, Onabe has vowed to keep her secret away from as many people as she can. Aside from her family, teachers, and doctors, she doesn’t think anyone else really knows the full truth. In addition she has grown to hate her name and has everyone called her Onee instead.




Apperance: Onabe, or Onee as she likes to be called is fairly average looking. She stands at 5’5” and weighs around 125 pounds. She has dark black hair and brown eyes, straight white teeth, a small, pointy nose and bony cheeks. She tends to try to wear the best combinations of make-up, hair products, and perfumes that she can find to best make her look feminine. Her body type is average, though she imagines she is much bigger and bonier than the other girls. Her feet are, on average, about a size bigger than most girls and if you look very closely at her throat you can sometimes make out the outline of a bump which is her underdeveloped Adam’s apple. She is very self conscious of this and tends to wear turtle necks, shirts with the collar up, jackets, or just tends to not show her neck off very much.

Other features of her include a fairly small bust size of around a B; although the hormones helped her develop she is clearly under-developed by a fair margin as compared to most of her female classmates. She has a medium-sized scar along the back of her neck from a fight she got in as a child, though not very noticeable she dislikes it and is another reason she likes to cover her neck and keep her hair long in the back. She’s also very aware of the fact that she tends to get a bit more body hair than most others. She has to shave more often and seems to consistently be noticing the fine little hairs that are on her arms and hands.

Overall she doesn’t look bad really. She is just your average girl with only a few signs that might give away her secret if you looked closely. Even then, though, a person would be hard pressed to come to the conclusion that she was born a boy. Mostly, it’s Onee’s own view of herself that gives her trouble as she really isn’t tease too often about her looks, at least not since Elementary school.




Personality: Onee is very shy and keeps to herself almost all the time. She finds she dislikes those who know about her past because she always feels as if they are judging her and looking down on her. Those who don’t know she is afraid to get to know in fear that they may find out the truth.

She is very self-conscious of her looks, always afraid someone will call her ugly or discover she was born a boy. Although her appearance is really just average, she sees herself as mostly ugly and unwanted.

Because of her fear of others finding out the truth, along with her confusion as to if she likes boys or girls more, Onee has never really gotten into any relationships and when she does find herself getting close to someone she usually does whatever it takes to sabotage things so that they don’t get too close.

As far as strengths and weaknesses go… She is a very capable girl motivated to make it out on her own someday and live life the way she wants. She is also good at working alone as that is how she has adapted becoming the loner and castaway of the school. In addition, previous years of being teased, having a hard life, and having parents who seem indifferent, it has left her a bit cold and rough around the edges. She isn’t one to easily break down if you call her names. While she is afraid of being made fun of or getting harassed, once it starts happening she can just ignore it and move on with things.

As much as being able to work by herself and being a loner can be her strengths, it’s also her main weakness. She has a very difficult time trusting anyone and refuses to let herself get close to anyone, she’d rather just be alone. She also tends to stay confused about her feelings, knowing that as a girl she should date boys, but yet, she has stronger feelings towards girls and knows she was born a boy. Her hermit-like nature combined with her emotional confusion can really make her a wreck sometimes and if she isn’t careful it can really get to her and make her break down. She keeps wishing all of this would just go away and she could just be one sex, male or female, but she knows that can never happen and so she has to deal with it.




Overnight Bag: Some pajamas as well as a change of clothes. A toiletry kit with make-up, deodorant, razor, vanity mirror, toothbrush, toothpaste, brush, a small bar of soap, and small bottles of shampoo and conditioner. A Notepad with a couple of pencils and pens. A CD Player with a few CD’s of bands she likes. A medicine box with some anti-depressants, Tylenol, and hormones she has to take. Her cell phone. And finally, a small battery powered alarm clock.




Father: Onee’s father is Akira Misuta. He is a proud business man who has worked hard all his life to obtain what he has. He loves his wife Rei and daughter Yuki, but can’t help but feel disgusted when he looks at his… other daughter Onabe. Onabe was supposed to be his son, someone to carry on the family name and legacy. Akira and Rei had, had a very hard time conceiving and when they finally had Yuki he was a bit disappointed it was a boy. After about a year, though, they tried to have another child, one which would be the last Rei could have due to medical reasons. At first it seemed like it would be the boy he wanted but then the child was born, sterile, deformed.

Akira resents Onee but has never abused her and has given her most things a father would give a child, that is, everything except true love and affection. He simply awaits the day that she will move out and he’ll happily pay for her schooling and even housing just so that the reminder of what could have been will be gone.




Mother: Onee’s mother is Rei Misuta, a businesswoman who meet Akira through a business deal they were both involved with. After getting married and getting well established with a home and a big savings account, Rei quit her job to focus on making a family for them.

After a lot of complications Rei finally gave birth to Yuki, the daughter she had always wanted. She was very happy to have Yuki, though at the same time, she knew her husband Akira had desperately wanted a boy. Because of this she made the decision to try to have one more child for him, but knew it would be the last. She had been raped early in life which had left a lot of scarring inside of her, part of the reason it had been so hard to have Yuki. The doctors told her the one child was a miracle in-and-of itself and that she shouldn’t try for anymore, that it was too risky. Despite this, she went ahead and ended up pregnant with Onabe, but, when she saw the child she had created this time she was horrified. Not only was the child basically genderless in her eyes, she knew she had let down her husband for life and they’d never have another chance at it. Her tubes were tied off after this and it sealed the deal.

Basically, Rei doesn’t hate her child, she blames herself and knows she disappointed her husband, but, since he hates her so much and since Rei already had the daughter she really wanted, Onabe usually became the afterthought and only got attention and care from Rei when she absolutely had to have it. Other than that, Rei’s attitude towards her second child was that of non-concern and disappointment.




Siblings: Onee has only one sibling, her sister Yuki. Yuki hates Onee because she sees the way her parents treat her and sees how she is always more important in their eyes. When she got a bit older she discovered the truth about Onee and hated her for it even more. Yuki has very little to do with her and hasn’t been a good sister at all. The more she can avoid her, the better. It was always torturous for Yuki to bring friends over because of her sister and she would always feel embarrassed around her. The day she can leave the house and be rid of her sister, the better.




Extra-Curricular Activities: Because of her nature and unwillingness to get to know other people and interact with them, Onee has had no real desire to ever get involved with after school activities. She has been forced to be in a few school productions and usually just does whatever she has to, to get the smallest role and do the least she has to do to get it over with.

From time-to-time she has considered joining the Fantasy Club, a club devoted to Fantasy novels, anime, movies, etc… She never has, though, as she has been too afraid to make friends and end up revealing her secret to people.




Classroom Behavior: Most usually you can find her sitting in the back of the class nose dug into a book studying or copying down the notes the teacher is giving in class. She tries not to be noticed and not ask any questions unless she just has to. She never volunteers to answer questions unless asked to stand up and answer, and even then she’ll act like she didn’t hear her name or like she is sleeping in hopes the teacher will ignore her.




Classroom Clique: She really doesn’t fall into any big category as she tries to avoid friendship. She is mostly a loner and keeps to herself. She isn’t completely anti-social however. Some of the less popular kids who don’t mind attempting to get to know her will start-up a conversation from time-to-time. She tries to be civil but usually does something to end the conversation early. Can’t risk getting too involved with someone.




Classroom Relationships: Again, not really falling into any clique or group of people, she really doesn’t have any friends in general. There are those who don’t dislike her and try to start conversations and while she won’t totally ignore them she never does anything to make them want to continue the conversation or be friends either.

As far as love relationships. Her fear of being discovered has kept her from ever starting a relationship and she doesn’t plan to start one anytime soon. However, even worse than that, she isn’t even sure who she’d like to start a relationship with either. Her attraction tends to be focused more towards girls but she knows that isn’t very acceptable and makes things even worse for her, however, she also has some feelings for guys, and while this would be more acceptable, she fears how a guy might react if he found out she used to be one too. No matter what, she just can’t seem to win.




Memorable Moments: She was forced to be in a Spelling Bee once and ended up doing really well. By the end of the Bee she was so into it she let some of her inhibitions fly and she got excited and even started talking with a few people around her. This made some wonder why she would start being lively all of a sudden and even led to one girl almost becoming her friend. After the Bee she came up and asked if they could go hang-out and while she almost said yes and made a friend, she decided it was too risky at the last second and backed out. Regardless, she has always remembered this moment and thinks this is an example of how she might get friendship sometime in her life.

Two years ago for her birthday her Mother bought her a CD she had been wanted of a band that had been banned by the government. It meant a lot to her and even though she usually got ignored by her parents this made her feel as if they might still have some love for her deep down. It was the best birthday she had ever had.

**Possibly more to come**